Welcome to the Jahm community @crily.love and hope you'll feel at home here 😊.
@dmilliz regarding your question, I'm afraid I can't give a conclusive answer. From my Christian upbringing I was taught that the Lord knows the beginning and the end and that He has a purpose for us, but on the other hand we also get to choose because of something called "free will".
The best we can do is follow His teachings and live our lives as good and positive as can be.