I have fear when I delay to eat

in ecoTrain3 months ago

I talked about foods these days mostly in my post, how i enjoyed foods, the energy they give to our body and few days ago, I also shared how I have hard times creating contents when I can't eat my favorite meal or, maybe, I ate too much of it. Yes, all are true, but there is still something missing which I want to add to it.

Generally, if i should delayed to eat, I would have a kind of neurosis also and it would seems like, everything I am doing from that moment are not good, and can not be presentable if I am asked to.

There was this time when I want to go get a microphone for music recording and on that day, I was feeling so tired to cook, and, I do not like eating outside, because that can be too costly and I do not want to put myself on pressure.

So, it was afternoon already and I couldn't wait to prepare anything myself and I thought that, once I get out of the house, on the way, I will branch somewhere and eat lunch.

But the funniest thing was that, I took a lot of times to dress up and get out of the house, because when I put on a shirt, it would seems as if, they were not good on me, and I will change it to a different one.

I did this for many times, and it was not like me that do not like delay when going out, but since i was empty stomach, it took the boldness in me away and I was beginning to do anyhow.

It was still at that moment that a call came in my phone, I did not even bother to look who it was, because at that moment, the ringing tone of the phone was scaring me.

What saved me was that, I needed to go with someone and he came to my place, since I was taken time to go out, when he opened the room, he saw a lot of shirts on the floor, and he asked me, "why are those clothes there ?.

I responded that, "at this moment, I hardly make choice of the shirt, I am to wear out. He choose for me, because, I was scared to choose a shirt for myself.

Immediately we step out, we branch the roadside food-store, I ate a full plate of meal, and then, my eyes were beginning to see ground, I smile and the guy didn't know why I did that, he is just someone who don't know me well, because, it is not quite long, I moved to the environment.

I didn't want to tell him the reason why I smile, because it would be an embarrassment, maybe, with time, he would learnt why I was finding it hard to make choice of what to wear that day.

But, I think the food seller could tell of why I smile, because with her experience, she has seen many reactions of people after eating her meal.

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